“Lo, children are a heritage of the Lord: and the fruit of the womb is his reward.”
– Psalms 127:3 KJV
“Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.”
– Proverbs 22:6 KJV
So I want to stop for a minute and really discuss the reason(s) why I started this blog to begin with. My journey to motherhood was a very hard, emotional, and very blessed road. My son is 20 months old today. Where has the time gone? It truly does seem just like yesterday that I found out that I was expecting him.
It is very true that while I was struggling to become pregnant, I really was even more in a struggle with my faith. I know that I did not rely on God and His perfect timing. I wish I could take that back. I wish I could say that my journey of becoming pregnant truly made me closer to God. In some ways it did, but really it wasn’t until after I became pregnant that I truly sought out God’s will. I guess it happens that way for a lot of people. We often do not see the “big picture” until we get through a storm and realize that everything truly does happen for a reason.
It is funny how becoming a parent can change you if you allow it too. I have began to realize that the choices I make in life do not affect just me. I know I should have realized that earlier but hind sight is 20/20 right? I really have began to realize that I have one shot in life to raise this tiny little human. I want to be a Godly example of how he should live. I want him to look back and say one day, “my mom may have went through some tough times, but her faith in Jesus never stopped.”
Now I know that we are all human. We are not always going to say the right things. We are not always going to make the right choices. We are not always going to choose the right response when someone hurts us. I know that it is tempting to want to hold onto anger and biterness when someone hurts us. It almost feels like we hold the power when we do not forgive someone. Truly, all it does is drain the life out of us.
I want my son to have a forgiving heart. I want him to realize that making mistakes is what humans do, but it is by the Grace of God that He chooses to forgive us, and we should extend that forgiveness to others.
I guess I just really wanted to say that I love my son. He is my treasure and a true gift from God. I owe it to him to set a Godly example. God gave my husband and I this true gift so we can give it right back to Him.